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Sat, July 12, 86,  5:45pm

- I feel Your great attraction and my helplessness in following You.  The disproportion between Your attraction and my resistance is amazing.

 Why is it like that?

+You cannot go beyond the body, and it limits you.

 This is also your cross.  Carry it with optimism and trust in My Love.  I care for you and help you all the time.

 It's heavy, but not beyond your capabilities.  Mobilize your forces as much as possible.  I'm glad you do it.  I am happy because I want to bestow you, and it depends on your effort.

 Ask for help, abide in Me in love and thanksgiving.

 Do what is given to you with joy and peace in your heart.

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Sat,  12 VII 86, 5:15am

- Is there a need to give in to someone's exuberance?  What are the limits of availability to people?

+There are no limits.  However, it is necessary to limit exuberance when there is little or no spiritual profit: telling about oneself by others, which is self-exhibition.  This has to be corrected in the way of assessments and conclusions concerning one's own conduct.  And show the prospects and the way to follow My call.

 Do not allow psychological dependence, but at the same time be a support.

 Show the way of independent coexistence with Me.

 Help for everyone, wherever they are, is My Church, people and events that I give.

 I am the one who leads.

 Tell it people less mature than you.

 Psalm 10:17-18 

Lord, you heard the desire of the humble, you strengthened their hearts, you inclined your ear to guard the rights of the orphan and the oppressed...

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Fri July 11, 86, 5:30 am 

+Be faithful to Me more than before.  And be united with Me in soul.

 I am there.  You know and you feel.  Be more in tune with that thought and that feeling.  It's true.  Only this really is: My presence in you.

 Also My desire to possess you in purity and devotion.  Throw away all extraneous thoughts and desires.  I know them anyway and I will not remain insensitive to them.  I fulfill your requests.  The unexpressed too.  I know you - all your thoughts and heart needs.

 Be even more passive.  I know, what you need.  I will give you everything.  Trust, My daughter, My friend.

-Your look was so sad...

+Yes, because I want you more perfect than you are.  Ask, I'll help you.  I want to help you.  If you fancy... what your heart longs for will happen.  Do not be afraid.  Do not tremble at the sight of meeting Me.  I love you and I will lower myself not to shock you with My great Love, My greatness.

 Be open, willing, trusting.

 Mk 16,7b 

... He is going ahead of you to Galilee, where you will see Him, as He told you.

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 Thu, July 10, 1986, 11:30pm

- It was during the Holy Mass before the Holy Communion, when I was praying with my eyes closed.

 I saw a side of a face. At first it was unmoved. Then it came to life.

 Very clearly, as if in close-up, I saw an eye opening, the color of flax flowers, and a gaze full of unspeakable suffering and love.

 It was the face of Christ from the cross in the presbytery of the chapel.

 On the first day, Christ on that cross seemed real to me. His truth struck me. It seemed also often afterwards, that He was going to move in a moment. I couldn't look at Him calmly. His life-size figure makes an amazing impression. I feel that he is suffering - for me and for many others, for the whole world.

 - What to do to reduce Your suffering?

+Trust Me, remember Me, give Me a great love until being lost in Me.

 I want you to want Me even more. Let that desire consume you. Let it become your only reality. The rest should be like a dream.

 You gave your vow to Me - you remember when...

 Sirach 40:22 Grace and beauty attract the eye...

 - What do Your words mean?

+I look at you and I want you to know and feel it. I want you to be graceful and beautiful for Me.

 I look at you and I expect...

 Be such, My friend, that you may become My bride.

 You said you wanted to become a new person. Become...

 - I feel a huge hunger for Your closeness and I cannot find you fully, 

+Desire - I will come to you; because you are mine.