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Fri,  July 25, 86, 5:30am

+Learn to live with Me and coexist in everything - all the time.  I surround you and I am with you, although you do not feel it.  You know about it.  Subordinate everything to this.  Exercise your willigness.  Try to be disciplined in serving Me with your heart and mind.  I want to go in and guide you even more.

 Invite, wait, watch, listen, so that you will be ready when I come in an even more powerful and visible way.

+ Your holiness is in daily overcoming and self-sacrifice.

 In falling and struggling to get up and crying out for help.

 In longing and desire to follow Me.

145 

Wed, July 23, 1986, 9:15 pm

 - Today during the morning Mass it was said that yesterday in the oases was a day of decision: whether everyone will accept You as their Lord and whether they will give You everything.

 I didn't know about it yesterday, and yesterday You asked me about my decision.  You showed me the choices.

 +Does this surprise you?

 I wanted your answer because you need it. Take it every day knowing that consent to my will is consent to the Cross.

 Full union with Me is union on the way of the cross.

 Tell Me about your consent in the morning prayer, so that your day has its value in Me.

 Today was a difficult day because you didn't have enough time for morning prayer.

 You should pray when I wake you up.  That's why I'm doing it.  You made a mistake today, and the rest of the day was the consequence of it.

144

Wed, July 23, 86, 3pm

 - I am a sinner.  What are my possibilities in the face of Your call and Your love?

+Quite simple: entrust and give Me your sinfulness and powerlessness.  Surrender with peace in your heart and love for people to everything that happens to you.  Don't you know that everything is from Me?  When you rebel against situations, you rebel against Me.  By showing impatience, even if only in the heart, to another person - you show this impatience to Me.

 - You're not angry with me, Father?

+My child, after all, I love you and I want your good.

 Therefore, these trials, this cross, falling and rising.

 I also carried the cross and there were bumps, and it was uphill I fell and it was hard for Me to get up.

 Do you understand that this was and is your human way of the cross?

 But want to go.  Mobilize all your forces and go to your Calvary, to the death of your corporeality, your "I", your egoism, pride...

 This is the pain of your dying.  But you know what's at the end.

 So what does all that is now mean to the birth of a new man in you, to the resurrection of your soul in union with Me.

 An effort of your will is needed, because this is the measure of your resurrection.

143

Tue, July 22, 8 61, 10pm

+It is more valuable to serve another human being and to give up one's comfort than to care for one's own convenient conditions for prayer and communing with Me.

 Remember that I am also in the other person, and by avoiding him, ostensibly to meet Me, you turn away from Me.

142

Tue,  July 22, 1986, 4:50pm

- I was with you in the darkness of the old church.  I was surrounded by Your goodness and soothing closeness, and Your "follow me" sounded in my heart.

 And then outside, behind the fence of the church, performances on the stage of a Yugoslavian band.  Their wistful songs.  A crowd of spectators.  Different world.

 My world from that era.  I was caught up here by the era that I thought I had erased in my memory.

 Yugoslavia - it was almost the beginning of my great journeys in search of beauty and goodness.

 And now that I have found beauty and goodness in You, so much greater, the longing is also greater and also unsatisfied...

 Where are You telling me to go?  What to do?  In such a small space and almost simultaneously, you showed me two completely different worlds - my worlds: that and this.  Why?

+ I showed you to choose again.  

You can - you have free will and it's not wrong to live in the outer, human world.

 I do not want your decision to follow Me to be due to a one-sided situation with no alternative.

 - There was no desire to return - you know...

+ I know.  I'm glad it is.

 - Is this today's fact is to decide something special on my way to You?

+Yes.  It was a test, not for Me, because I also know you as you will be.  I know your future days.  It was a test for you and a confirmation of your choice.

 - What's the test for?

+ For being called to be closer to Me.

 Your answer is important.  Don't ask which way you will go.  What matters is that you want to follow Me and that you don't want to go back, to look back.

 Follow the path of My Love, gazing and listening to Me - only and completely.

 Be my faithful bride.  Don't ask for anything and don't worry about future days.  I am with you and I am guiding you.  And do not be surprised at anything, and do not be too moved.

 Unusual things, incomprehensible to the human mind, may happen to you, but you trust Me and you know that everything is possible for Me.

 - Do you expect something from me?

+ Nothing more than trust and fidelity.  This is what your love for Me should be filled with.

 Give Me all your thoughts and feelings, all your actions, all of yourself.

 Always give back - so that you have nothing but Me.  In Me you will have everything.

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Mon, Jul 21, 86, 3:15pm

- How can I distinguish Your words from my own thoughts?

+ No need to distinguish.  If you come to Me for a talk and ask for it, all the thoughts that enter your mind, are from Me.

 Your questions are also inspired by Me.

 I guide the entire conversation and show you the things you should be asking about.

 All the more the answers are Mine.

 Do not be afraid.  Your trust and your faith make me speak.  And I am responsible for My words and your understanding of them.