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Tue,  July 29, 86, 5:15

- You did not let me, Lord, go to the confession, even though today is a day of penance and reconciliation.

+You will go after a week to the one who is your regular confessor and spiritual father. During this time, think about what your path was like.

 - I have sinned against Your Love by forgetting about You, about Your constant presence. I couldn't give You all my thoughts while praying. They often left, I don't even know where. In the beginning, there were days when I couldn't push away my hostile thoughts towards the sisters. There was also pride. I could not gratefully accept the humiliations which I had first asked of You and which You had given me. Criticism towards people and a desire for isolation arose.

 These are probably my greatest sins. Have I forgotten something?

+You should also keep in mind the instructions I give you for each day. Remember My teachings and try to apply them with greater zeal. Ask for help constantly.

 Also remember the Words of Scripture - they complement what I am saying to you directly.

 You ask what is the way to holiness - that's it.

 - So much misery and so much stupidity in me, Father. I am nothing to You.

 How can You bear it?

+Because I love you.

 I know the immensity of your smallness and helplessness.

+I am all perfection and nothing needs to be added to Me. I can only accept helplessness and human misery in order to sanctify it and turn it into love, beauty and happiness.

 That's all I want.

 I am Love and I want to make happy and save all My children.

 This is My nature and this is why I created you.

 Give Me your nothing, this weakness, this helplessness. I want it. Only this.

 I can't accept anything more, because you have nothing more of your own.

 Come and enjoy it. Draw from Me. I want it. Do not strive for anything else, only to be as close to Me as possible, always. Do not be ashamed of your sinfulness. I know it better than you do, and I want to help you, I want to save you.

 That's why I was a man, that's why I suffered and died like a man, so that you could be God's child, God's heir despite your misery.

150 

Mon, July 28, 86, 7pm

- Was the testimony I gave in the church thanks to Your grace, too strong, too spectacular, as someone described?

+For average people is unrealistic to follow.

 Critically accepted or even rejected by those satisfied with their moderate path.

 Don't be dismayed by it.

 These were My words and My testimony of action in the life of a person who gives Me everything.

 Not everyone can afford it.

 Today, radical attitudes that will be a sign of opposition are especially needed. Half measures are not enough.

 Stay with Me and give Me everything. Strip yourself more and more. This is your calling. Only on this path will you find completeness in Me. And don't hide it. Be natural. Speak when they inquire and ask. Be silent when they are unable to understand.

 Don't explain and don't translate. Your life, modesty and simplicity will explain more than words.

 Be brave, My daughter.  

 There are people who were deeply touched by this testimony. You know the reactions of some of them.

149

Mon, July 28, 1986, 5:30am 

- What will become of me? What about the scar on the face? Looks like it's gotten worse. It hurts.

+ Do you want me to heal it?

 - If the value of my life in you is to be in suffering and isolation, then let it stay and be as you see fit.

 Was my being here of any value other than the sacrifice of being among these people and these external activities?

+You were and are a sign for people that it is possible to live differently; there are other values.

 Man is shaped more by situations than by My Word.

 Therefore, the fate of man is a sequence of situations that educate him. This is My action leading to the salvation of everyone. Most don't understand it. They defend themselves against My saving action in their lives.

 And they reject it because they have free will. They choose the apparent, temporary good. For what is not from Me is not good, although it can create the appearance of good in order to deceive and distract from Me. It often turns out to be evil already in this life. If man understands this, he is saved. If not, he wanders on to his annihilation like a blind man, because he is blind. It is the blindness of the soul, which it kills of their own free will.

 Only a great shock, pain or the help of another can stop him and open the eyes of the soul.

 Prayer and sacrifice for a lost person are very helpful. It always brings results.

Tit 2:1.7-8 

You must teach what is in accord with sound doctrine.

In everything set them an example by doing what is good. In your teaching show integrity, seriousness

and soundness of speech that cannot be condemned, so that those who oppose you may be ashamed because they have nothing bad to say about us.