205

Sun, 7 IX 86, 10am

- Accept, Lord, this emptiness of mine, this dryness, this impotence and powerlessness also in prayer.

 Happy are those who are already with You and all this is already beyond them.

+You are happier than many of them, because you have in front of you the time of this life in which you can gain infinitely much for your future life with Me.

 Many would gladly return here to receive the opportunities you have. Do not envy them, so that later you do not envy those who are in the world and can do what you will no longer be able to do.

 Everyone has their time and opportunities. Be thankful for what you have. Thank for this state and this situation you are in right now. Bear it patiently and trust in the great meaning of all that I do in your life. And stay faithful to Me, even though your heart seems empty to you. I will fill it with joy when the time comes when you persevere.

 Do not write down or allow negative thoughts and feelings into your heart and mind. You know where they come from. Be closed to them and completely surrendered to My care.

 Remain as My Mother remained under the cross: quietly and with trust.

 With faith in the resurrection. Trust all My promises I have given to humanity and to you. The hard and bad time will pass. I will be always Me: eternal Love in which you will dwell.

 Psalm 68:2-7 

God rises, and his enemies scatter...

 And the righteous rejoice and be glad...

 The father for orphans and widows is God in His holy dwelling place.

 God prepares a home for the abandoned and leads captives to prosperity;

 on parched earth only the stubborn remain.

204

Sat, 6 IX 86, 10:45am

+Being with Me also requires uniting in suffering.

 Know that whatever happens to you, is from Me. Seek support and help only in Me. Only I can strengthen you and save you. Only turn to Me when you are overwhelmed by infirmity. And remain in trust like My Mother. Even if the whole world was against you.

It's going to be more and more against you because you're abandoning it. It's offers, it's deceptive happiness, it's shoddy brilliance and empty gaiety. It will take revenge on anyone who rejects it and follows My light, which is not of this world, which is alien to it.

 Don't be afraid of it and don't be anxious.  My power is with you and My Love is around you like a protective shield, like an armour.

203

Fri, 5 IX 86, 5:45pm

- Everything twists in me and dies of longing for You, Lord, and You are unreachable, although so close...

 What's happening to me?

 +You must go through this fire of longing. This is the way to union with Me. I am. But everything that connects you to the world must burn out in you. Stay and trust. I am with you.

 - Where do such feelings and such sensations come from in me: love, desire and pain?

+My closeness gives birth to them and My Love that touches you.

202

Fri, 5 IX 86, 9:50am

+Yesterday we talked about the Way of the Cross. You are on it and you have to go regardless of how you feel.

 The higher and the farther away, the greater the separation from what surrounds you, because you no longer belong to it.

 Only I am your support and your goal. Always!

 And I am a role model - My Mother and I.

 Give Me your pain and your vulnerability, give Me everything: all the weight of this cross and all the bumps over which you stumble. In return, I will prepare for you love and joy, peace and solace.

Come. My arms are always open and thirsty for My little children.

 Such is the Father's and spousal love that He wants to accept everything that is heavy and painful from his beloved children. And that's all he wants, and that's all He's waiting for at the door of your heart.

201

Thu, 4 IX 86, 11:30 pm 

- It was difficult for me to join the common prayers at the Renewal meeting today. Is there anything wrong with this style and pace of prayer becoming alien to me?

 +This is a good sign. Your soul needs more focus and communing with Me in silence. This shows greater spiritual maturity.

 Nevertheless, you should attend these meetings. If you find it difficult to pray, offer this time and these difficulties.

200

Thu, September 4, 86, 10am

- During the prayer I got involved in the analysis of the value of life - what is its positive value and in the analysis of sin.

 Is it time wasted? I was returning to the events and facts from my own life regarding the relationship with another human being.

+ If you are only replying events or if you have resentments and regrets, that would be wrong.

 If you draw conclusions that enrich you and discover the truth about a person and about yourself - that's good.

 Everything in your life was for this very purpose. If you didn't understand it then, well, if you understand it now. All life is a lesson in preparation for living with Me. You need to learn from this lesson and change your life under the influence of this learning. Change life with yourself into cohabitation with Me.

 Intercourse with Me will not be replaced by intercourse with another human being. So many mistakes and disappointments. The more you expect from intercourse with another person, the greater the disappointment and pain.

 In every vocation there is a cross that must be carried along the way of the cross. And in fact, you have to carry it yourself and rise from falls surrounded by passive observers.

 The real Helper is I, not another man, although I can use another man. Simon was forced to carry My cross and it was not his merit that he did so.

 Life is similar, although sometimes there will be Weronika who will wipe your face.

 The way to Me - which is life - is like My Way of the Cross :

 in solitude, indifference of the surroundings with painful falls towards passive spectators. In increasing effort and fatigue.

 And the greatest pain and abandonment awaits at the end. And that pain is caused by people.

 Also those for whom you have done a lot, because now they are not with you.

+This is the picture of human life. It is an image of My Way of the Cross in its multiple meanings. A test that must be passed both physically, and spiritually.

 It is the will and perseverance that counts, despite everything that is going on around you and what is happening to your body and how much your soul is suffering.

 Because only the goal matters: union with Me - Infinite Love.

 You are made for love and this is the main desire and need of your life.

 Woe to you, however, if you locate this desire and this need in the other person, in things, in your own ambitions.

 Then, the more successful you are in the eyes of the world, the greater is your failure.

 Think, where in your own way of the cross you are, how you behave, what your feelings look like.

 Compare... are we very different?

199 

Wed, 3 IX 86, 11.30pm

+I want you to strive for perfection through discipline, for only then can I give you My greatest gifts that I have for you.

 You do not realize how much you can gain by obeying My will and how much you lose by carelessness.

 The perfect fulfillment of My will is accompanied by peace and tranquility.

 Everything is in the right place and at the right time. And there is satisfaction in a job well done.

198

Wed, 3 IX 86, 8:40pm

+You should listen. Listen both to hear how, and to obey.

 My voice is quiet, it is an invitation, a proposal. It takes good will and some effort to hear it. Above all, it requires trust. Come. I am still waiting and calling. And I'm still too much left out. I want to say and give you so much. Don't postpone our meetings for later.

+ There will come a time when there will be no "after". And that time is near.

 Dan 1:5

The king gave them a daily portion of royal food and wine, which he drank. They were to be brought up for three years, after which they would enter the service of the king.

- How to understand your words?

+I have assigned you a daily share of My joys, toils and sufferings.

 Through them I perfect and prepare you for union with Me in My Kingdom. But also to serve and cooperate with Me still here.

 Be prudent and devoted to Me like Daniel.