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Wed, March 19, 86

 - Since yesterday I have been thinking about how to fulfill the Lord's will.  What to focus on and what to avoid.  How do you want me to be, Lord?

 +Saint.

 - Where am I to be holy, Lord!  How come, could I?

 +You don't want to?

 - I want, Lord.

 +That's enough.

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Fri, March 7, 86

 - I asked the Lord to accept me as a victim of reparation for the renewal of faith, for the return of those who had abandoned Him.

 I asked Him to send me wherever he wanted.  I will accept every effort, every suffering - if only He would be with me.  I said any place would be heaven if He was with me...

 +After all, you will always be with Me - if you wish.

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Thu, March 6, 86

 +You must be sensitive to My voice.

  - Then, when His presence and His grace fell on me, I wanted to be with Him and to be with Him forever.  I wanted to leave this world, I wanted Him to take me to Himself.

Then knowledge and image appeared.

Knowing that not now, and not without sacrifices and sufferings preceding union with Him forever.  Knowing that first is needed to be united with Him in His Sacrifice and Suffering.

It was also a visual recognition: I saw Him carrying the cross - uphill against the background of the silhouettes of the mute and unmoved crowd.

And I wanted to go with Him, to be with Him, to share with Him on this way to the cross.

 - And then there was only Light that completely immersed me.  I knew I was in Him and I belonged to Him.

I asked: how to return to the world and still be in Him and serve Him?

 +You may return to the world, but you must be careful and alert.