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Ezra 8,28b-29 Final preparations for the journey...

I said to them, “You as well as these articles are consecrated to the Lord. The silver and gold are a freewill offering to the Lord, the God of your ancestors. Guard them carefully until you weigh them out in the chambers of the house of the Lord."

 - The feeling of helplessness increased after reading the words of the Lord.  There was also the fear of the contrast: my sinful powerlessness and smallness, and Him: perfect, powerful, infinitely great.

 He loves me though.  He told me this.  It was during the morning prayer on the 30th, December 5: in my heart I heard clearly:

 +I love, I love.

 -I couldn't pray today.  I was ashamed before the Lord and thanked Him for His word.  Then He said:

 +You have to learn a lot.

 - I can't do anything...

 +I will help you.