186

 Thu, August 28, 1986, 12:30pm

 - I am still suffocating in the confines of my humanity. I can't go beyond it to find You, though I know You're so close.

+I am here, persevere, mature for the meeting that will take place.

 Let your love and your desire mature.

 - What do you expect from me today, Father?

+Perseverance , concentration, giving Me everything. Smile. Be joyful. Your heart should be filled with joy. You have many reasons for this, My chosen daughter.

 - Joy and smile in such darkness and longing?

+Your night has already leaned and the dawn will begin. You already feel its closeness.

Look into your heart, do you not see My light in it?

 Night phantoms disappear: doubts, sadness, uncertainty...

 Look: I'm with you...

 - I'm afraid that what I write is a delusion of my imagination...

+Where is your faith?

 - I am asking for Your Word from the Scripture, for the Word of Your Truth.

 Job 29,2

 Who will bring back my old happiness, the time when God protected me, when he shone a lamp over my head?

185

Wed, August 27, 86, 10:20 pm

 - You make me write, Father, and I don't know what.

+I'll tell you in a moment. Consider what is in your heart.

 - What's in my heart? Nothing. Nothing at all and completely dark.

 Emptiness is darkness, it turns out...

+You have entered darkness because your separation from the world becomes greater.

 Before perfect union with Me, one must go through darkness.

 - I know that it is at the moment of death. Why does this concern me now?

 +This is always the case when a person departs from what is external, what is of the world, to unite with Me. In a maximum way at the time of death.

But you are dying to the world to some extent. So you also have to go through the darkness - this is the border where the outside is no longer in your heart and you have not yet perceived Me.

 Hence the feeling of emptiness.

 - What to do or just wait?

+Stay in front of Me, pray. I am close, though you cannot see or feel.

 Your only refuge is believing against all feeling.

 Is 4.4-5.3 | Future Renewal 

When the Lord will wash away the filth of the Daughter of Zion... with the breath of judgment and the breath of fire, then the Lord will come to rest all over Mount Zion and those who gather there.

 ... Whoever is left alive in Zion, and who is left in Jerusalem, everyone will be called holy and written in the Book of Life...

184

 Tue, August 26, 86, 10:15pm

 - My hunger for Your closeness is immense, painful. And despite the days full of different things, different meetings, I'm stuck in emptiness... and only Your words come silently...

+Continue. I know your soul because I am in it. I know your pain and your longing note. Be alone as I was in Gethsemane.

 Unite with Me. You don't have to feel, you just need to know and believe.

 Be patient and submissive like My Mother. She too was waiting, longing, looking. Much more so than you, and She was quiet, trusting, faithful to the end.

 Be like that too.