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Mon, March 9, 1987, 9:30am |  1st day of the retreat 

- Get rid of all resentments, regrets and forgive everything completely.

 Pray for those who hurt.

+ If you want much, you must give much.

 If you want to receive Me, you must give yourself.  You will receive as much from Me as you give Me of yourself (in proportion to your smallness).

 So do not be sorry when I remove from your heart what has stuck to it.  I have shown you what the proportion of the payment is.

 Bear it patiently and give thanks that this is My will for you.

 Today, during the Eucharist, I showed you how much your sacrifice is needed, through which I want to heal My priests and My religious children.

 Through your little sacrifice, I can remove a great deal of evil from their hearts.

 Your sacrifices and your humility will be the payment for their greed and pride.

 My Love will multiply your sacrifices and I will heal many.

 Do you still regret what I'm taking?

 - Not any more.  I'd also like to wish for it when it hurts a lot.

+Only your permission is needed.  My Angels will take care of you and My Mother will watch over you.

 Ask the Holy Spirit for His power and courage every day.  Recommend yourself to My Mother and be surrendered to My Love throughout this retreat I have appointed for you.

 For nine days do the Stations of the Cross and unite with Me in it.  Stay focused and adore Me in your heart.

 Don't make any self-determined sacrifices.  Fast only on Fridays - complete until 1pm .

 My little bride, with my own hands I will purify you and your pain will be saturated with pleasure.

 - I was thinking that I needed reassurance and confession at the confessional.

+You will receive from Me everything you need.  Trust.

 Luke 9:16-17 |  The first multiplication of bread 

A He took the five loaves and the two fishes, looked up to heaven and said a blessing over it, broke it and gave it to the disciples to give to the people.

 They all ate and were satisfied, and twelve more baskets of the fragments they had left were taken up.

 - Yesterday, there was talk of self-sacrifice based on this parable.

 -I asked the Lord to show me a psalm with which I should pray for priests:

 Psalm 82 |  The Fate of Wicked Judges

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Tue, March 10, 1987, 9:30 am |  2nd day of retreat 

- Get rid of bad ambition and attachment to yourself and anything.

+Accept it to make up for the sins of the world.

 You turn around when you need to pray and make amends for the weaker ones, for My erring disciples.

 Ask to go away from yourself so that I can take away all your attachments.  Don't complain when it hurts - sacrifice it for My children in religious orders and in the priesthood.

 I will take away your flaws and give you trust in God.  Then you will become free and evil will disappear in those environments for which you will pray.  I will transform where I send you.

 Beware of new attachments.  Avoid any recognition or praise.  Give them to Me immediately, for I am the author of all that will be done through you.

 Trust that all the toil and pain of the trials I will give you are for the sake of making you a pure sacrifice for the sins of the world.

 Col 3:2-4 |  The glorious Christ is the rule of the new life 

Seek what is above, not what is on earth.  For you have died and your life is hid with Christ in God.  When Christ, our life, appears, then you too will appear with Him in glory.

417

 Sun, 8 III 87, 11:20pm

+ Tomorrow, your real cleansing retreat will begin, preparing you to become an instrument of My action in the world.

 I will bare and take away everything that is an obstacle.  Your only support will be blind trust in My Love, despite what will happen to you and what you will feel.

 - It hurts when You have to constantly give, serve and let what's there be taken out of Your heart.

 I shrink, burn, and others grow and flourish.  To accept this, you must love your neighbor much more than yourself.

+My child, I have called you to this.

 But know that this is the path that I and My Mother followed.

 Don't you want to be with us on this path?  After all, you are with Us, is this not enough for you as payment for your sacrifice?

Do you think there is a more privileged way than to accept a fate similar to Mine and My Mother's?

 Review the Eight Beatitudes and consider whether you really want to receive them.

 - I wish to.

 Should I write about all this?  Isn't that taking care of yourself?

+Write down what matters most and keep it continuous every day.

 Now it is very important for you not to succumb to temptation, which could be the beginning of destroying what I have built in your soul.

416

 Sat, March 7, 87, 8:33am

 - When, after Holy Communion,  I showed You empty hands and said: see, I have nothing to give You, you said:

+ It is good that you have nothing, because I have everything.

 I don't want your deeds, only you, only your soul.

+Stay with me in silence.

 The greater the love, the less words are needed.  When everything is in man's self-giving love - the lips remain motionless.  Everything remains still, though burning with love.  The fire is alive and spreads, and the coals remain in place.  They just let themselves burn.

 415

 Fri, 6 III 87, 11:50pm

- Thank You for the pain of injustice.  I'm sorry I couldn't get it right away.

+ But you accepted and understood that it was necessary out of love for Me.

 Be faithful to Me in trials and pains, and I will make it transform you.

 - I am asking for such experiences.  I am asking You to know everything that You have known.  And please let me bear it.

+ I will carry you in my arms together with the cross that I will give you.  Do not think ahead, but accept everything from moment to moment, clinging to Me.  I am and always answer your call.  I always want your little love, your expectation of help.

 - You can talk with the intensity of love completely without words, without even concepts, without using the mind.  There are so many finer, truer ways, so subtle yet so distinct.

 +I am teaching you My love.  You are just beginning to discover its wealth.

 414

Fri, March 6, 87, 11am

 - I donated $550 to this sick woman yesterday.  That's about as much as I had at home.  And I was thinking about rounding up when there are any endings left after deleting the account.  There's nothing left.  Thanks for that.

 If any of my friends found out about this, they would think I was abnormal.

+And what is the norm and normality?  - Egoism, greed, pride, vanity, envy and jealousy.

 Would you like to go back to that normal?

 - No, certainly not.

 - Your holiness and my dirt are in me.  It's like putting fire and water together.  That's why so much pain.

 When will everything in me burn out that is not You?

+My child, come, rest with Me.  I will calm your trembling heart, calm your mind...

 I know these days are difficult for you for many reasons.

 I have refreshed you and you have received My blessing.

 Psalm 55:23

 Cast your care on the Lord, and He will sustain you;  he will never allow the righteous to be shaken.