433

 Fri, 20 III 87, 6:45am

 - You know, Lord, how much I want to radically and absolutely give You everything and live only You, and I'm stuck in one place, paralyzed, and maybe I'm even regressing...

+Let there be in your heart a constant cry to Me, a constant desire and dependence on Me.

 After all, you know, you had evidence that I take and implement the matter entrusted to Me, even if everything indicates unreality.

 Even more so a soul that wants to give itself.

 The feeling of helplessness is needed because it shows your real helplessness and impotence.  This is to bring you closer to Me, not further away.

 You are to be like the blind: completely blind and helpless and completely trusting - taking sure and courageous steps despite the blindness and darkness in which you are.

 It's not that you don't know you can't.  Even better that it is.

 I hold you in my arms.  I move your feet and your hands.  I open your mouth and form words in it.  I move your heart and fill it with merciful, compassionate and helpful love, which does not criticize, does not get discouraged, but lifts, supports and transforms.

 I saturate your mind with My wisdom.

 I do all this - but only when you give yourself to Me and trust Me, even if the greatest darkness surrounds you, even if you do not see or understand anything.

 Let there be only in you a loving desire and trust.  Only this.

 Take care of it.  Watch that.  Concentrate all your efforts here.

 Absolutely everything depends on it:

 - your existence in Me, - your vocation and mission to the world, which hangs on the thread of Love that passes through you.

 If you break this thread through your own negligence, you too will perish along with those you were supposed to save.

 I created you to fulfill this vocation, because this is My will - My holy will, to which you gave yourself consciously and voluntarily.

 M a l   - the whole book

432

 Thu, 19 III 87, 9:45am

 - You have shown me a lot, Lord, and made me know.  What to save?

+I have shown you the evil in which the world is plunged.  And the light of My love.  And the children of My light, through whom My love reaches the earth and drains the swamp of evil and illuminates the darkness.

 Where I send a child of My light, there is My brightness, My love, My peace.

 The children who have completely entrusted themselves to Me are surrounded by the splendor of My light and the darkness will not cover them, it will not touch them.  They can walk among vipers and they will not bite them, in mud and their feet will not be defiled.

 Covered with the cloak of My love, they can enter the lions' den and they will not touch them.

 Unlimited trust in Me makes Me to clothe  with the mantle of My light of love.

 In order for me to be able to cover you with such a cloak, you must shed your own clothes in which you have hitherto protected yourself - your concern for yourself.

 You must leave nothing behind.  Then I will give all new and all Mine, and you will truly be clothed in Me: in My power and in My love.  And also everything you need in your everyday life.

 You, children of My love, are called to something far more perfect than caring for your body and its needs, or for the needs of your own selfishness.

 Your vocation is to live in Love and for the Love that I am.

 Lk 7:23 

"And blessed is he who does not doubt me."

 

431

Wed, 18 III 87, 11pm

 - You once made me understand that when You strip me of many things and bind me, You will finally reach for my health.  For my sense of security, which is provided by an efficient body.

 Was what happened today an attempt to take it away from me?

+I want to make you independent of external situations, also with regard to what is happening to your body.

 - Was my reaction very bad?

+No.  It was correct.  But you were unnecessarily scared and thought that you might need people's help.

 You gave me suffering.  But you didn't risk what would happen to you.

 I would like to teach you to go so far from yourself that in the moment of danger you will cling to Me and offer Me your helplessness, humiliation, the need to rely on help and the reactions of random people.

 Why are you afraid of human help?  After all, helping someone is a grace for the one who helps and for the one who accepts.  It is a great gift.

 - I could never ask for help.  And the main motto of life was maximum self-sufficiency: not to disturb anyone, not to burden, not to depend on anyone.  Is it wrong?

+Wrong, because it isolates, because it closes people off.  And you have to cooperate.  Coexistence is about the exchange of good.  On mutual benefit.

 On the flow of My Love between people.

 No need to tame it.  And that's what happens when you can't receive, when you don't want to receive.

 The basis of such an attitude is also pride, not only the well-being of others misunderstood.

Accepting help requires complaisance, humiliation... 

Even more humiliating is the readiness to accept refusal when you ask for and need help;  without offense and stuttering - with love.

+I want to destroy the wall of independence in you.  I want to make you able to give yourself to your brothers by being helpless towards them, by relying on them.

 You can be completely defenseless because I am with you.  I hold you in My arms and I will not allow your soul to be stained by the evil of the world.  I want it to be pure and holy, and therefore it is necessary to purify its deepest layers.

 430

 Wed, March 18, 87, 9:50am

 - Here I am before You, my holy Spouse.

+Be quiet.  Absorb My Love and My power.  You will serve it today.

 Jer 18:6b 

For behold, like clay in the potter's hand, so are you... in My hand.

429

 Tue, 17 III 87, 10:55am

 - What should I pay attention to the most when following You?

+For inner silence, so that nothing drowns out My voice.

428

Tue,  March 17, 1987, 9:50am 

|  9. The last day of the retreat

+Today's topic is your decision:

 - Are you ready to give yourself and your life to Me as a sacrifice of reparation for the sins of the world, for My chosen ones?

 - Do you consent to all kinds of death and suffering of life, to all deprivation?

 - Do you pledge your love and fidelity to Me in every situation?

 - Yes, I want everything You want to do with me, because I love You.

 I am asking You and your mother to protect me.

+You will always be looked after.  Your consent and openness to My action is needed - always, in every moment of your life.

 - I should end this retreat with a confession...

+Wait.  I will take you at the right time.

 - Should I continue to say the Stations of the Cross every day?

+Don't impose any rigid commitments on you, and I will excite your heart and give you time for whatever I want from you.

 Be vigilant and adapt to My wishes on a regular basis, from moment to moment.  Live in the present moment and My Love.  Does the baby in the Father's arms care about anything or think ahead?

 Be completely dependent on Me and completely free from all cares and plans.  I want you to be ready for My every call, completely available.

 If you have any business to attend to, give it to Me and wait for My inspiration for what to do and for My actions.

 You should not have desires and longings other than My Glory and My Love.

 Open and place everything before Me constantly.  You have a powerful Bridegroom - trust Him.

 Sirach 22:23b | Fidelity in friendship

 Stay with him in time of adversity, so that when heirship comes, you too may share in it.