443

 Thu, 26 III 87, 11:15pm

- Today is one great pain and a cry to You, my Bridegroom.

 There is your caring closeness and there is a storm of bad thoughts and feelings that rolls through me. My soul is battered.

 I love You and thank You for the fire of this experience.

+I cleanse you of self-love so that all your love belongs to Me.

 I watch your suffering and struggle with tenderness and concern. Keep peace and trust. I watch over you to not allow more than you can bear.

 - Did I miss something today? I can't pray, I can't defend myself from the bad thoughts that surround me.

+Do nothing but what is necessary to maintain your relationship with Me.

 We walk the road of the cross together. We just passed the fifth station today.

 I have placed upon you part of the burden of the cross. You helped me carry it.

 Now rest. More work awaits you tomorrow. Offer it.

 For what purpose do you want to offer?

 - In many...

 Am I allowed to ask for so much?

+Ask for much, ask often. I want to give a lot. I want My children to crave My gifts. I have so much, and few want to take... Take for them and distribute, and I will multiply as bread, so that all who hunger may be filled. That they would hunger more and more and be filled with Me.

 Ask and take and give.

442

 Thu, March 26, 87, 9:45am

 - The earth will burn me in O. [Retreat place - Otorowo] and I would like to run away like Jonah in the opposite direction...

 +You have to accept humiliation and toil with a heart full of My love.

 Take care of My love in your soul, think of nothing else.

 Instead of running away from people, you must go to them with My love, even if they want to crucify you.

- Haven't I done that?

 You will go there with me in your heart. Reject the promptings that Peter gave in trying to dissuade Me from this intention.

 Ephesians 6:10-11 

Finally, be strong in the Lord by the strength of His might. Put on the full armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the evil schemes of the devil.

 The fifth station of the Way of the Cross to be considered.

 441

Wed, March 25, 87, 10:50pm

- What do you expect from me, my Beloved?

+Love. It will give birth to everything. Then doing My will will not be a duty, but a joyful desire.

 Then, with a beating heart, you will await the fulfillment of My wishes.

 - It already started from that meeting after Holy Communion, in the night of renewal.

 Do not let me neglect anything,nor let me to offend Your sensitivity and Your holiness.

+My child, you know how much I care for you.

 - I know and I should probably confess what my love for You looks like and my share in Your love for everything You create.

 + I am just teaching you to look at everything this way. You just got your first lesson. Remember this and carry in your heart My love, which I embrace all My works, all living beings, all people.

 Love and give together with Me.

440

Wed, 25 III 87, 8:45am

+I will continue to empty you in the fire of suffering and tenderly nurture you.

 The more you cling to Me and My Mother, the easier it will be, the more love you will experience.

 - I was thinking about the humiliation that is needed in dealing with You. You made me understand that it should only come from love, as a response to Your love, for which man should be able to do absolutely everything. And he should want to do everything. It will be nothing compared to what he gets.

 Your love is complete self-giving - to the last. Always, for each of us. Love in its purest form - to the measure of God and His unlimited possibilities.

 Our human idea of ​​love is completely primitive.

 The source of worship should be admiration for the love of the Lord.

 You gently touched me with Your love, and this memory is in me like hot coal, like a breeze on a hot noon, like a ray of sun at dawn...

 Only the metaphor of love poetry can give any idea.

 And it will only be a substitute.

 Psalm 31:24a

 Love the Lord, all you who worship Him!

 Fourth station to consider.

 

439

 Tue, March 24, 1987, 9:30am 

+Your agony continues. Keep peace and serenity. Only I am your life. Everything else died.

 Station III to be considered.

 Gal 10a

So now: am I courting people or rather God?

438

Mon, March 23, 1987, 9:50am

 - The time of torment has begun. Body and soul are aching, and I feel as if the juice of life has been squeezed out of me.

 The memory of Your tenderness, Jesus, is like a dream that is no more, and I dare not even dream that it will ever return.

+Your position on the road has changed. You are no longer on the receiving side, but on the giving side.

 - I wish I could be happy that I can serve, and then feel like a useless servant. And rejoice in the hope that someday You might want to use me again.

+Rejoice, this is a great reason for joy. You are much closer to Me now when you receive less and give more. When there are no people to strengthen you, and those who come, only want to draw.

 I am your strength and support also when I am silent and when you do not feel My closeness.

 You are where I am and you do what I do. Sacrificing oneself for one's brothers is like this: one must die to oneself.

 

 Ba 3,1-4a 

Omnipotent Lord, God of Israel, a troubled soul and a downtrodden spirit cries out to You... You endure forever, and we are nothing . Almighty Lord, God of Israel, hear the prayers of the dead...

 Consider the second station of the Way of the Cross.

 437

Sun, 22 III 87, 11am 

+Remain in loving union with Me in the silence of your heart, mind and body.

 Ezekiel 3:24b

 He then spoke to me, saying to me, "Go, shut yourself inside your house!" .

I started to consider the Stations of the Cross of Jesus - today the first station 

436

 Sat, 21 III 87, 10:15pm

- What happened in me under the influence of Your touch?

+I lead you into the depths of My Love and you die to the world and to yourself because I have possessed you.

 "I think I'm running out of abilities to describe meetings with You."

 It would be profanation and sacrilege.

 Only silence full of adoration and gratitude is possible. So big that You can hear the rustle of flowing tears in it...

 435

 Sat, 21 III 87, 2:40pm 

- What to save from this crazy night full of You, Lord?

 What can I say except that it was Your power to transform hearts?

 How to describe the tenderness of Your love when, after Communion, You leaned over me to kneel next to me and wrapped Yourself around me. That your holiness, Your care and your gentleness were so great - touching and penetrating everything in me. That there was a moment of such intensity of Your love that if it lasted a second longer, I would have to die, because the human heart cannot accept more...

 And coming to me so unexpectedly, You did it with the gesture of a man through whom You lead me Your way...

 How is it that I am your child, your bride, with my rudeness, primitiveness and ingratitude...?

 How is it that You want to look at me at all, with that look of love under which one can only weep for itself...?

 And at the same time I know that what You have let me know, is a tiny part of the immensity of Your love that You have for me.

 Psalm 144:3 

O Lord, who is a man that you care for him, who is the son of man that you remember him?

434

Fri, 20 III 87, 7pm

- Today is the night of prayers for the renewal of the gifts of the Holy Spirit - what will happen?

+Joy in meeting Me. Be calm, I will act in the people you care about. Give Me all of them and ask for the transformation of souls.

 I will come with power and renew My people.