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Thu,  2 IV 87, 11:10pm

 - My God, what was wrong today?

 +Dryness.

 - I am tired in it and in my helplessness.

 +And you gave it to me?

 - I think so, at the prayer meeting,

 +A bit late.

 You see, child, you are a little lost in your helplessness, and I want to give each thing back the moment it appears.

 Don't be discouraged.  Give it back to me.  This is the only condition you must meet to allow Me to work in you.

 - Have I gone backwards again?

+ No, but you have stopped and you must go, because time is pressing.

 - Thank you, Lord, for this effort of prayer.  You have deprived me of all feelings and sensations.  I persist by willpower as you commanded.

452

Thu  2 IV 87, 9:30am

 - I want everything.

+You will get everything.

 Fill yourself with My power and My love constantly.  Absorb and desire to receive more and more from Me and give for My people.

 2 Corinthians 3:3 |  Dignity of the apostolic vocation

 It is well known that you are a letter of Christ through our ministry, a letter written not with ink but with the Spirit of the living God;  not on tablets of stone, but on living tablets of hearts.

 The twelfth station of the Way of the Cross for consideration.

 451

Wed,  1 IV 87, 11:45am

- I don't know, my Savior, how to express... what I know from You.

 In today's station You tell me about dying together with You for humanity.

 You say my agony has begun.

 It has indeed begun.  You have revealed to me the truth of many facts that clearly point to this - facts from my entire life, and especially from the last few days.

 Today you gave me another sign and clarity of vocation: Unexpectedly, I received a picture where, against the background of the chalice, the host and the cross, a crown of thorns in the color of blood is exposed.  Below the inscription: This is My Blood.

 On the back, written words that someone received from Scripture for me from the Lord: 1 Corinthians 13:3. 

 These words, as it turned out, complete what the Lord had instructed me to write down earlier and keep in mind at home: 

1 Corinthians 13:4-7.

 (When the Lord gives a sign, even by some inconspicuous act, it is accompanied by a striking clarity of understanding what He means by it and for what purpose.) 

Thank You, Lord, that my calling is precisely this, that You also told me that the sacrifice  without love is nothing (and recently I told someone that I am ready to go to the stake for Jesus).  Thanks for correcting my notion of victim.  I long for it and look forward to it.  Let it be according to Your will.  Your love makes me so...

+You must realize that now you have nothing to do with this world except the service you are to perform and the sacrifice you are to make.

 I will work through you.  Be completely submissive to Me and sensitive to My voice.  I will demand suffering, including blood sacrifice.

 Time is running faster and faster and the density of events is increasing.

 The fight continues, although it is invisible to blind people.  Everyone will see it soon.

 Be at peace, my beloved child, my bride.  Get ready for the marriage of the Lamb, for it will be soon.

 He who looks from above already sees the morning dawn over the night of the world.

 Trust, your Bridegroom loves you and is with you.

 - Teach me Your love and fill me, because it is still not enough in me.

+Wish with all your strength of will that I may give much.

 The strength of your desire determines the limits of all you can receive.

 

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Wed, 1 IV 87, 9:50am

 - Here I am.  I don't know what can I offer you today?

I myself will take what you do not need - if you still allow Me.

 Your purification lasts and will last until the end of your days, for on earth man will never be completely purified.

- I can't talk to You today...

+ I'm draining your emotions.  You must learn to stay with Me only by force of will.

 You must accept My will every day and not worry about what will happen in the future.  The future is hidden.  Only I know it.  That's better for you.

 It is not important what will happen, as long as it is in accordance with My will.  Then it will be the best possible on the way to perfect union with Me.  You have to love and trust.

 Station XI to consider.

 +Love is the weapon, love is the cure, love is the light, love is the goal.

449

Tue,  March 31, 87, 9:40am

+And the stronger and harder I have given nature, the more it hurts when it bends there to form according to My design.

 I have given each one a perfect nature and a perfect soul.  But it is distorted by sin.  I want to restore the perfect shape.  And I will return to those who will.  And as much as they allow.

 I give life on earth in order to be able to restore the perfection to which everyone is called.  The higher the degree of perfection, the deeper and more painful the formation.

 Don't be discouraged by suffering.  Quite the opposite.  Every suffering is a grace that needs to be understood and accepted with gratitude and inner joy.  It always leads to a higher level of union with Me if accepted.

 Therefore, it is a beneficence, and those who inflict pain are benefactors even though they do not know it or do it for other reasons.  They too are My instruments and they do so by My will.

 Know that the people who have hurt you have done the most good.

 Many who have flattered you have done you harm.

 Everything is by My will and everything is a constant test that you are subjected to.  It is a test of love: is there greater love in you than the evil that afflicts you?

 Love is strengthened and added when you use it against evil.

 The greater the evil afflicts you - the stronger love you should show.

 My love was great when I was hanging on the cross - love for everyone.

 I prayed the most for those who caused Me the greatest pain.

 If you want to follow Me, you must accept it and want Me to teach you to love.

 My child, great sufferings, even the most terrible ones, are really tiny compared to the love you have in Me.  What tiny touches you have already known, and what infinite immensity awaits you.  Be brave, staring at Me.  I am always with you and I care tenderly for your ever deeper union with Me.

 Sir 46,la.7a

Joshua, son of Nun, who was brave in battle, Moses' successor in the prophetic office, became great according to his name by saving his elect...

 And because he was perfectly obedient to the Lord...

 Station X to consider.

448

 Mon,  March 30, 87, 11pm

Station IX to be considered.

 - So much suffering is needed to follow the path of holiness...?

+The higher the road, the more it takes - to bear alone...

 I wouldn't allow it if it wasn't needed.

447

Sun, March 29, 87, 8am

 |  Days of recollection in O. 29-30 III

 For consideration 8th station.

 - I couldn't control the tension today despite my devotion and entrusting to You, Lord.  There was no love for people.  God, heal my heart!

+I do this, showing your weaknesses and that you are completely powerless against them.  I do this, to make it easier for you to surrender yourself to My care and so that you can count only on My help and ask for it at every moment.  Your own efforts are futile.

 This is the condition for progress on the little way of being a child of God.

 Don't be afraid of your shortcomings.  Give them in repentance and trust.

 Besides, My child, I also want to make confession easier for you.

 Trust and love - this is what you need to pay the most attention to when evaluating yourself.

446

 Sat,  March 28, 87, 3pm

 - Also today I was unable to approach a person spontaneously, I only analyzed all the pros and cons until the matter became obsolete.

You showed me again, Lord, my selfishness and lack of love.

+You have a lot to learn.  I am revealing the truth about you so that you will want to change and pursue all that I want to build in your heart.

Consider the next station of My Way of the Cross and ask for healing your heart of selfishness.

 Station VII to consider.

 Hebrews 10:19-24

 So, brethren, we have confidence that we will enter the Holy Place through the blood of Jesus.  He opened a new and living way for us...

 And having a great priest... let us approach with an upright heart, with full faith, purified in soul from all conscious evil, and washed in body with pure water... Let us care for one another, to encourage one another to love and to good works.

 445

 Fri,  March 27, 87, 00:10am

 - I have sinned today, Lord, against Your love.

+My child, learn to meet Me in every situation and in every person.  Greet and accept everything and everyone with love.  When it will be: importunate, angry, unwise, malicious, unjust - also accept with love.

 When you are tired, busy, sick, hurt, wounded - also accept with love.

 Take care of it and ask and give me your heart so that love may be in it.

 May it be in your eyes, gestures, words, voice, in all of you.

 After all, I am Love and I want to be fully and always in you.

 Let Me, ask Me, do not forget.

 Holiness is not just prayer.  Much more situations, contact with people, your attitude towards them and your attitude towards all My works in which I am.

 I am touched by everything you do, think, say, experience.

 Your every external and internal movement touches me, because I am in you and you are in Me.

 Learn gentleness and goodness from Me.  Wear them.  Let them become clothing for your soul and your body, not for holidays, and not only for church - for your own.  But in the mundanity of the day, always.  Let them illuminate this dullness, color and beautify.

 Build the Kingdom of Love.  Go to people as I come to you.

 Desire to be like this, and I will watch to make it happen.  I will cherish My Love in you.

 Do not worry about yourself, only about My Love.

444

Fri, March 27, 87, 9:15am 

- Today, when I was going to the nearby chapel, a bus to the city center arrived and You said with great tenderness:

 + Do not get off, My child.  Keep staying on the bus.

 - You let me know to go to the church of Your Sacred Heart, although it changed my plans.

 When I entered, the Eucharistic Sacrifice was already in progress, but nevertheless You wanted me not to go to Adoration, but to stay at this Mass first.

 When the cup of your blood was lifted up, it shone like a star.

 Holy Communion was in two forms...

 You have shown me great grace, my Savior.  What is this mark of your blood?

+ It is a sign of martyrdom.

 True Christianity is martyrdom.

 You have drunk from My Cup and you know what it means.

 I showed you this grace, because today is Friday and today, like Veronica, you wiped My tortured face.

 I gave you Myself so that we could go on  together carrying the cross, which is a sign of love.  You will share with Me the pain you will experience today.

 Be calm;  I'll wipe your tears away before they fall and I will brighten your face.

 Station VI to consider.

 1 Tim 1:18-19a;  

This command I entrust to you... my child, according to the prophecies that previously pointed to you: that, supported by them, you will fight the good fight, having faith and a good conscience.

 Therefore, I recommend, first of all, that supplications, prayers, intercessions, and thanksgivings be made for all people... that all people be saved and come to the knowledge of the truth.