464

 Sun, 12 IV 87, 7pm 

- In the morning I went for adoration to the Church of the Sacred Heart of Jesus in the city center and I thought that I would stay for the Holy Mass and therefore I would not have to go out again before noon.

 Originally, I had intended to attend the dedication of the chapel in my new parish at 11 a.m. and the solemn Mass.

 As the Eucharist began, I suddenly remembered that I had left an electric spit at home that had been warming up an hour ago.

 I understood that the Lord was thus forcing me to miss this Mass.

 I gave the safety of my home to the Lord, and without panic, trusting Him, I returned.  It was full of smoke, but not yet on fire, though it looked like it should have started sooner.

 We used to go to "our" chapel together with our neighbors, and then I met a few people and these meetings were very valuable.

Thank You, Lord, that You punished my self-will and taught me how dangerous the consequences of disobedience can be.

+ I did not want to punish you, My child.  I wanted to instruct you, and I also wanted you to be in your parish.  You see now, how important everything involved was.  I have shown you how many things overlap in My action.

 If anyone opposes My will, it upsets My plans.  People who participate in them, have difficulties and complications.

 A child who has given Me his will cannot do this, because I use him as My instrument, and the instrument must do what My hand tells it to do.  Otherwise it spoils the work.

 Your mistake was that you gave in to your will, dictated by your own convenience, without asking Me if you were allowed.  If you had succumbed to the temptation and delusion that nothing would happen if you stayed until the end of Mass, there would have been a fire.  And then it would be a punishment for disobedience, the effects of which would also be felt by other people.

 For the evil done by one man, others also pay.

 Your disobedience would not be trivial, for you have committed yourself to great things.  So be vigilant.  Always ask when faced with a choice of action.  I need your docility so that I can use you freely.  I am constantly preparing you for this dispositional devotion.  You know that I need many of My chosen children to save the world.  Much depends on your absolute obedience.

 Rom 16, 19-20a

 Caution Your obedience is known to everyone, So I rejoice in you, but I want you to be cunning in good, and innocent in evil.  And the God of peace will soon crush Satan under your feet...

463

 Sat, April 11, 87, 7am 

- God, teach me zeal in faith.

+There is no need for exclamation marks, only loving clinging to Me with the trust of a child.

  - How very rarely, at this meeting yesterday, we prayed for those who have died.  At one point, I felt the presence of someone else so clearly that I had to start praying.

 When we were still together after the prayers, D. called to inform us that K., our mutual friend, had died.

 Was it her?

 +My child, do not ask for details.  But know that the souls in purgatory need support very much - especially at the beginning.  And they go to those from whom they can receive them.  Blood ties become less important than spiritual understanding when they need help.

 Acts 24:1-2 |  Before the court of the Prosecutor Felix 

Five days later, the high priest Ananias arrived with some elders and a rhetorician named Tertullos.  They brought an accusation against Paul before the governor.

 - K. died on Monday morning - so last night was the fifth day.

462

 Fri,  April 10, 87, 00:25am

- At the prayer meeting of the home group - during the prayers - the action of the Spirit was strong as never before.  I wasn't the only one who felt this way.  We also prayed for the healing of body and soul of us present here.

 After leaving the street, J. (sick with leg paresis) realized that he was walking normally.  He was jumping for joy and admiration for the grace he had received from the Lord.

 +Do not push away the awareness that I am giving you great gifts.

 Such modesty inhibits, as it were, closes to these gifts.  I can do everything.

 And it's not your fault that I chose you.  After all, I have chosen you and called you ,  giving you life.  Be faithful and silent so that My power may be fully within you.

 461

Thu,  9 IV 87, 6:45am

- You heal my throat.  It got much worse when I started taking the meds, and now that I've stopped taking them, it's almost back to normal.  You show me that basically everything depends on trust, but absolute one.

 Mostly it's like this, it's kind of great when nothing threatens me.  However, at the moment of danger, I start looking for human means and tell myself that You probably do not want to give me this grace.  This is obvious stupidity and betrayal of Your love.

 Increase my faith, Lord!  Take pity on my stupidity.

 +I do it.  I have exposed to you your thinking and reaction mechanism.

 I showed you that typical human trust in themselves, more than in their God.

 What is needed is an absolute, total faith, against one's own logic and the delicate promptings of Satan, who constantly raises various doubts.

 My child, what I have said about faith and the mustard seed is true.  Totally true.

 If you could always be with Me in your heart and trust Me in this way, I would give you My power - as it is: unlimited.

 But there is one more condition: you would have to use it only according to My will and for My glory - without a trace of pride and vanity.

 This is difficult.  I can only bestow My power on humble people - humble of heart - who give Me everything completely and do not attribute anything to themselves.

 You have to completely cross out your own "I" - your self-love.

 Don't take care of yourself, even if others hurt you a lot.

 You see: reacting to injustice is a test of self-love.

 If you are in pain, it means that you still love yourself more than Me.  And then I have to limit My graces so as not to fuel your self-love.

 Let Me care for your dignity and your value in the eyes of people.  Do not do it alone, because then I have to painfully inhibit your self-love with the help of people.

 Beloved child, you know Me, you know how much I love you - trust Me to the end, don't think about yourself, let Me guide everything that surrounds you and what is in you.

 I want so much to share with you what I have right now, and I have everything.

- I know all this, but my inner reflexes are different than I would like.

+ There must be a tension of desire and inner being with Me - continuous.

 And in important moments - absolute.

 No joy or pain can diminish it.  You also need to rest in My arms and share every sensation with Me.

 Psalm 117:1-2 

Hallelujah.  Praise the Lord, all nations, praise Him, all peoples, for His mercy is mighty upon us, and the faithfulness of the Lord endures forever.

460

Wed,  8 IV 87,  11:45pm

 - Heal my throat, I won't use drugs anymore.

+Trust.  Everything depends on your faith in My power and My love.

 - I believe in Your power and love, but I don't know if You want to give me this grace.

+If you trust and desire for My glory, you will surely receive every grace.

 - I do not know what I can do better: to suffer for Your glory or to enjoy the grace of health.  I guess the first one is easier - at least it doesn't threaten with pride.

+However, the merit is proportional to the difficulty.

 - I want to do Your will.  I wasn't thinking about merit.  I will thank You for whatever You do.

+ I know, my child.  I know you better than you know yourself.

 459

Wed,  8 IV 87, 11am

+ I am your confidante and your refuge.

 - But You are hidden and kind of abstract...

+This is how I am until the meeting.  Accept it.  This too is a martyrdom you agreed to.

 Martyrdom applies not only to the body, but above all to the soul.

 - Sore throat returned.  Does this mean that You have withdrawn Your grace of healing?

 (I used gargle medicine).

+It depends on your faith.

 - Against the facts?

 +Yes!

458

Mon,  6 IV 87, 9:30am

+Be attentive and focused.  Always consciously with Me.

 Jer 37.16 |  Jeremiah's Prison

 So Jeremiah got into the vaulted dungeon and stayed there for a long time.

 - What do these words mean?

+That you will remain in the darkness of sensations and that you must stay with Me only with your awareness and will.

 

 I could give you strength, but you need to know your weakness, then you will stick to Me more.

 457

Sun, 5 IV 87, 10:50pm

 - Why did we dream about you , mother?

[This may suggest that at the same time mother was also dreaming of her brother Sławomir].

 • I care about you.

 - Are we in danger?

 • Everyone is at risk of a great deal of suffering.  And evil lurks for everyone.

 You must persevere and not be separated from the Lord even for a second.  He is the salvation of those who are with Him.

 - I belong to the Lord and I know where He leads me.

 • It won't be easy.  You must persevere.

 - You are silent, my Lord.  Everything is permeated with your power.

+Snuggle close to Me and be at peace.

 456

Sun, 5 IV 87, 10:30 am

 When I invited the soul of my mother and relatives to pray together, I heard:

 • Let's bless the Lord!

 - Yes, let us bless the Lord, because He is holy, because He is good, because He loves us!

+Arouse love in your hearts.

 Life is an exchange of love.  I gave you life out of love.  But your development depends on whether you respond to My love and what that response will be.

 You love Me too little.

- And I tire myself in my inability to love and in distractions.  Maybe that's why my heart hurts, because I can't arouse in myself the love I want to give you.

+Remain humble and thirsty.  Wait for My coming.

 Song 8:5a-6.14

 Who is she who emerges from the desert leaning on her bridegroom?...

 Put me like a seal on your heart, like a seal on your arm, for love is as strong as death, and its jealousy as irreconcilable as Sheol, its heat is the heat of fire, the flame of the Lord.

 Run, my beloved, be like a gazelle or a young deer on the mountains among balsam trees!

 - When will my exile end?

+It's about to end.  Trust and rejoice.

 - There is some sadness in Your love.  Your tenderness with which You touch me, Your tender solicitude, is devoid of joy.

 The joy of Your touches - of meeting You - is tender: like the joy of meeting condemned men on their way to the scaffold.

- When will we set off for our destiny?

+ No need to ask.  I am with you and will always be with you.  Until everything that needs to be done comes true.

 Then there will be true joy - elation in My love.

 - Lead me, my Bridegroom... because love is as strong as death...

 455

Sat, 4 IV 87, 10:50am

+ I subject your heart to various exercises to prepare it to fulfill My will.

 Stay faithful to My love.

 Col 4:17b 

Be careful that you fulfill the ministry you have received from the Lord.

 To consider the last station XIV - my purification.

454

Fri, 3 IV 87, 9:30am 

- I promised You faithfulness and I want to keep it, but it's different.

+Be mindful of the little things and try to be right about them.

 I showed you the difference between big promises and everyday little reality.

 Greatness is based on smallness, and half-truths have no place in it.

 Everything that happens to you, is My question about faithfulness, about love.

 Your behavior is the answer.

 Great deeds are useless when small deeds contradict them.

 So pay attention to your reactions and words so as not to offend people, not to alienate them.  In this way you offend My love, because I love everyone and I am in them.

 Everyone you come into contact with is given to you by Me to show them My Love in you and My Truth, no matter what it will cost you.  Not from a position of charismatic superiority, but of humiliation.  If it costs a lot, the better for you, because your merit and sanctification are greater - if you accept it with humility.

 Ze 1:12

 ... with torches I will search Jerusalem, and I will punish the men who are frozen in their weeds...

 Station XIII to consider.