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Sun,19 X 86, 10:30pm

 - I would like to be fair to You. Am I?

+You are my child.  But there is fear in your heart.  What are you afraid of?

 - I should go further with You - into the depths of Your Love and Your Cross.  Will I not be allowed to have my desires?

+ It's allowed, but what for?

 It will be better, much better, if you entrust Me with your desires and your freedom.  Freedom within Me is better than your own freedom outside of Me or next to Me.  Don't you trust Me?

 - I trust, but it's hard to give everything, without leaving anything.

+By giving it all away, you receive it all back from Me in a more perfect dimension.  You lose nothing and gain a lot.  Don't fall for human illusions.  Take the truth from My words and trust.

 So that you know, how much I care about your well-being.  How much I want you not to lose anything from the opportunities I am creating for you.

 Let Me shape your destiny in union with Me.

 - I still want it, and yet there is a restlessness that I cannot remove.

+It's a temptation.  Give it back to Me, before it starts to destroy you.  You are powerless by yourself.

 Temptations will come to you.  Learn to give them back to Me before they touch your heart.

If you are fixated on My Love and immersed in it, you will not see any temptation, My Love will protect you like an armour.  Dress yourself in it.

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Sun, 19 X 86, 11:10am

 - What should I do next?

+Why do you ask?  You don't need to know the way if you're coming with Me.

 You may not know anything except that I am with you.  Except for recognizing My voice and following its call, even if you have to walk in complete darkness.

 Don't be curious and don't ask questions.  Maybe it would be harder,  knowing the weight of the future.

 Concentrate on getting to know Me, My love and My will.  It is a light for you to light the way where you are to put your foot.  You have given Me your will and your life, and I take care of everything.

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Sun, 19 X 86, 0:30am

 - What will still be with me?

+I will lead you in greater union with Me.  The path of your vocation is set, and you will follow it with joy in your heart.  You will recognise it  soon and your heart will be filled with peace.

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Fri, 17 X 86, 11:30pm

 - How am I supposed to pray, my God?

+With heart

 - Can I with tears?

+You can, child, as your heart dictates.

 - Anything else you want to tell me?

+ I love you.

 - Where does this shell on me come from, which is now cracking?

+I allow it.  You wanted to be crucified with Me.  You are.  In this everyday life, in this impotence and in this longing.

 It's grace. Give thanks for it.

 I suffer with you in your heart .  You're not alone.  You know you're never alone and you'll never be alone.

 - I feel like Peter after the third rooster crows.

+Every man is a Peter and is blessed when he hears that third crow.

 And in this he differs from Judas.

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Fri,  17 X 86, 7:30am 

- Here I am before You, the Lord and my God.  Guide my steps.

+ Remove from your heart everything that is not Me.  Pray for it.

 - It's been a long time since I looked at the clock during prayer, and now I do it because I'm waiting for the end.  What's wrong with me, Jesus?

+Persevere to overcome yourself and the drought.  The harder it is, the more you persevere in surrender and hope.  Trust, My daughter.

 Psalm 125:1 |  The God of Trust in Israel

 Those who trust in the Lord are like Mount Zion, which does not move but endures forever.

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Wed, 15 X 86, 11pm 

- Why does a man, knowing that one has to trust, so rarely is able to?

+Human nature is tainted with original sin and cannot shake it off.  The tendency to pride manifests itself in man by counting on himself.

 This impulse of independence is stronger than the awareness of helplessness and the need to lean on Me.

 I want to weaken this reflex and habit of self-determination in you.  I want to teach you to turn to Me and entrust Me with all matters.

 Don't ask me what to do.  Present the case to Me and hand it over to My decision.  It is much better this way, because in this way you show Me complete trust.  And after all, I know better what you need most and what is best for you.

 When a child stands before the Father in his helplessness and complete faith in His help - He cannot refuse him and will not refuse.

 The most perfect self-emptying that I speak of in the Gospel consists in getting rid of the ambition to be someone and to decide about something.

 You must become nothing to be all in Me and through Me.

 And you must do nothing on your own, so that I can do everything in you and through you.

 - I was so dry and cold today, and now you have restored my soul to life and the warmth of your closeness.

+Giving Me your problems not only causes me to solve them, but also strengthens the bond of friendship and love with Me.  Surrendering yourself to Me is synonymous with your love and trust and evokes a response.

 This closeness of Mine that you feel now, is My response to your trust.  A small trusting child needs to feel close to the Father and He gives it to him.

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Wed, 15 X 86, 9:50am

+Be faithful to Me, my child, in everything, and you will see what will be the fruits to the glory of the Father in Heaven.

 - Can I...?

+You don't have to be able to do anything, because I can do everything.  So give Me everything and trust me.

 All life is a constant trial and there is no room for rest.

 Rest and reward will be with Me in Heaven.

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Tue, 14 X 86, 1:30pm

- Sorry for the late prayer...

+You forget about the hierarchy of importance.

 - I miscalculated the time...

+Start everything with prayer and there will be no problems with time.