406
Thu, February 26, 87, 11am

- At the morning Mass, before the readings, I thought: I wonder if there will be a confirmation of the Lord's request yesterday.

1st reading:
Sir 5:1-2 |  Wealth and audacity

Do not rely on your riches and do not say: «I am self-sufficient.

2nd reading:
Psalm 1 |  Two Ways of Life 

3nd reading:
Mk 9,41-50

+ In order to heal human souls, one must have one's own as pure as crystal.
- For what purpose should I pray?
+ For the intention of priests.  That they be free from all human attachments and that they draw people to Me by their example.

Psalm 59:10

I will keep watch on You, O my strength, for You, O God, are my stronghold.

405
Wed, 25 XI 87 10:55pm

+Write down what you are experiencing.
- I spoke to J.B. today.  about my vocation, and then a desire arose in me to leave everything, many things, and go even more radically.
I told her that I was already materially deprived, because I gave away a lot, because I am indifferent to these things.

[In 1987, Alicja adopts a very modest lifestyle.  He's giving away his new color TV.  She donates the dollars she had to a sick person].

Returning home, I was wondering what I can give You.  I felt like I had nothing left.  I didn't think I had a foreign exchange account.
When I opened the door, the phone rang and there was a request for a specific sacrifice to save someone's health - foreign currency was needed.  I thought about a certain amount and then I heard:
+Everything.
I wasn't sure if it was the Lord's voice.  Or rather, I fueled this doubt in myself, probably wanting to leave something behind.
I asked for a word from Scripture.  When I opened it, I saw the title of the page:

DANGER OF WEALTH and beyond:
Luke 16:13c |  The good use of money ...

 You cannot serve God and Mammon.

"So You want me to give it back."  The subsequent events of the day led to this fact, which is supposed to be a confirmation that I can really give You everything.
You demanded Isaac from me, with whom I associated a certain dream (pilgrimage to the Holy Land).
Thank You for wanting to take it, to purify the remnants of my tendencies.
Would You like to tell me something?  Was it the dream or the money?
+For both.  I remove your attachments, protections, likes.
Do not think about the future, My child, it is in My hands.
Why do you care today what I will do with you tomorrow.
I love you, and whatever I do will be better than what you can provide for yourself or plan or even dream of.

404
Wed, 25 II 87, 8:45am

- Pray, my patroness, that I may be able to get rid of everything.
[We are talking about St.  Faustina]

• You don't have to get rid of or know how to do it.  He will take.
He will do it Himself.
- Pray that I may be able to want, that I will still want it.
• Think of Him and entrust everything to Him.  Be calm.  You live in His Love, you are completely immersed in it.
+Write down what is in your heart.
- I don't know.  I can't pray.  I am in front of You, no fear anymore.  There is peace.
+Prayer does not have to be long.  It doesn't even have to be passionate.  But it has to be an act of devotion.
Time and zeal are the means. 
The goal is to surrender to My will and give everything you think about, what you care about, what you have.
So it can be a very simple prayer of dedication that lasts, that you live in your daily life.  Its value depends on the degree of devotion.
From authenticity and consistency in devotion.

2 Chronicles 19:3-4

"You have found good works, because you have removed the Asherah from the land, and have set your heart on seeking God."
So Josaphat remained in Jerusalem.  And then he went to the people...
and turned the people to the Lord, the God of their fathers.

- For some time now I have a desire to heal people spiritually.
+ Ask for this gift.  And accept with all readiness the sacrifices it requires.

403
Tue,  24 II 87, 10:45am

- Your promise shines before me like a star, but I am walking through a dark valley.
Am I walking or am I still stuck in the same place?
+ I'm guiding you.  My Love and My light go before you.
- And everything around is prickly like thistles and there is nowhere to rest.
Your light calls, calls and attract and is elusive, like the horizon.
You burn my soul in the fire of loneliness.  And it is a living wound that fears even Your touch.
+Do not concern yourself with yourself, just look into My light and its sweetness will fall on you.

402
Tue, Feb 24, 87, 9:15am

+Do not be afraid of Me.
I feel dirty and ashamed of myself.
+And who will cleanse you if I do not?
- I don't know, maybe it should hurt longer.
+It is up to Me how long and how much it should hurt.  You don't have to add anything.
+ Probably, the hardest thing is to stand oneself...
+Because of your own pride.  You absolutely want to be something in your own eyes.  And it's hard to come to terms with knowing that you're nothing.  And it really is.
All good and all worth in you is from Me.
You don't have to get too attached to it, because then I can take My gifts back so that you can see who you are without them.
So endure yourself with humility and trust in My Power and My Love, which raise you to the dignity of a child of God and My bride.
Perfection is not the most important thing, but love.  Your perfection depends on Me, but love is your authentic gift to Me.
You can only give it to Me and yourself as you really are: wretched, weak and sinful - without any positive ideas about yourself and without self-dusgust.
Since I created you like this - it has its purpose and meaning.  Trust and have enough love and humility to face Me with all this.
- Is it an internal detachment from self-attachment?
+Yes, child.  Become indifferent to yourself, and all the love you can afford, direct to Me.  Then your holiness and union with Me will begin.
- And what has been so far?
+These were graces and lights given to you to know the way and My love.
- What to do?
+Nothing.  Only to love.
Become completely free in My hands and glowing with love.  Then I will fill you with My love and with it you will love everyone and also yourself.  And nothing can shake it: no person, no event, no injustice or harm done to you.
Everything will be nothing compared to the love that will burn within you.

Am 9:11 

On that day I will raise up David's tent that is falling down, I will wall up its cracks, I will raise up its ruins...

401
Mon,  23 February 87, 11pm

- Have I sinned a lot today?
+ Less with burst of nervousness.  More with that you were unable to repentantly open your heart to Me.
You were focused on yourself, the humiliation in your eyes and the pain it caused you.  You tried to fix it yourself, in front of people and in front of Me.
That was your mistake.  It was necessary to come to Me and give Me everything with repentance, trust and love.  Then it would be easier for you.
- I feel disgusted with myself.
+Don't take care of yourself.  Think of My forgiving love.  Place all your powerlessness against your own nature before Me, so that I may protect it.
You asked to exercise your patience.  So I showed you, what the truth about you looks like in this respect.
- Now, what to do?
+Ask My Love to transform your nature and keep you from thinking too well of yourself.

400
Mon,  23 II 87, 9:15am

- What instructions will You give me, Lord?
+ Limit contact with the material world and the use of its goods to necessities.  Anything beyond that, discard as unnecessary.  As a hindrance to following Me.

Can I distinquish the difference?

+I will be watching and the Angel who looks after you.
- Is it mostly about nutrition?
+Not only.  Also about comfort and your own preferences.
It's more than material things.
+They are the starting point and the framework for going out from each other.
I want to fill your life with Me.  I want to be your whole life.
No one and nothing should absorb you for your own values ​​- only for the sake of Me.